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AnnoMi-client_100_124.mp4 No, no. It is an individual but you're right. Yeah. It's— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_126.mp4 But here's the thing is— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_128.mp4 Right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_130.mp4 The thing is after, you know, after the 9/11 attacks, a lot of companies have blindly implemented, you know, those types of situa- and-and there's no- there isn't, at this point-- I mean, I don't think, at this point, there is no real sure fire way to find out what those reports are, you know, accurate or not. I mean, there's a lot of situations where people's reports are not even accurate about their criminal background. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_132.mp4 I think that- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_134.mp4 -blindly, people have implemented those types of, um, measures and they don't have any efficiency with them because they don't- you know, I mean, everybody is offering background checks now and stuff like that. And I'm- that's one of the things that I'm afraid of is that people are implementing all these security security measures, but they don't really know if the reports are even accurate, you know. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_136.mp4 I have. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_138.mp4 Yeah, I do. I have one and, uh, um. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_140.mp4 Right, yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_142.mp4 Yeah. Thank you. I don't know. I'm just, I guess- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_144.mp4 -what I'm really— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_146.mp4 Yeah, I'm really here because I think I'm- I-I- It's a very dangerous area for me when I'm discouraged because- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_148.mp4 -you know, all the- despite all the good things that I have going for me, the only thing that's loud and clear are the things that I don't have going for me. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_150.mp4 If that makes any sense. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_152.mp4 Thank you. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_154.mp4 Yeah, yeah, I am. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_156.mp4 Oh, okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_158.mp4 Very interesting. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_160.mp4 Yeah, again, it's like who you know, right? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_162.mp4 I know that- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_164.mp4 Yeah, well, I think that's what I got. That's what I am doing. That's what I'm sort of involved with now is like, you know, find, um, you know, I'm still continuing to go to school, but I'm also starting, um, work for myself. Um, you know, it's not no Fortune 500 company or anything, but I do have a little bit of income coming in from that. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_166.mp4 Um, it-it, uh, you know, it will all come together. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_168.mp4 You know what? Actually, one of the things is that I read is that is that's one of the things you gotta do is just, uh, start your own business. You know what I mean? Uh, you don't have to report to anybody. I mean, obviously, I can't work with, um
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AnnoMi-client_100_170.mp4 Like truck driving and stuff like that. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_172.mp4 Uh, but that doesn't matter to me. You know what I- you know, I'm kind of- I'm trying to look at the things that I can do. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_174.mp4 Right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_176.mp4 No, it's, um, uh, like a party planning event, you know, like a wedding planning, not like a wedding planner, but like— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_178.mp4 Like, you know, like corporate events when they have, you know, like an event, you know, they need- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_180.mp4 -you know, they need chauffeured transportation, limos, they need that type of thing. I, um, I'm involved in the planning of the transportation from airports, uh, hotel arrangements, um, uh, booking of, uh, you know, the rooms. It's just, I guess just an event planner, but it's not through any sort of corporate, um, uh, company [unintelligible 00:19:40]. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_182.mp4 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm trying to get— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_184.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_186.mp4 I don't know about that, but, you know. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_188.mp4 Yeah, I think that's my only, uh, uh, I know it's not my only- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_190.mp4 -but it's-it's- it's a good, It's a good opportunity to, um, kind of work for myself. I would love to just be able to work for myself, you know? Um. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_192.mp4 I am, I am comfortable with it and I do well. I do well at-at, you know, the few opportunities I've had to organize something like that. Um, it's okay. You know, um, at least I'm still going to school though, you know I'm going to be done with that. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_194.mp4 I don't want to act out, you know, I mean, I'm, you know, I think I have- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_196.mp4 Well, you know, I dunno, um, going back to a lifestyle, you know, crime or, um, using, or you know, just destructive behavior- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_198.mp4 -and sort of destructive behavior. I don't wanna be destructive. I wanna be productive, you know. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_200.mp4 Like I am now, but it's-it's starting to get
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AnnoMi-client_100_202.mp4 Yeah. I mean, I just recently had one of those where I was gonna be offered. I- he
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AnnoMi-client_100_204.mp4 And, uh, it was an interview given to me by my brother, you know, who knew the guy. And, um, it went great until he gave me the paperwork to sign for a background check. And I said, well, you know, I'll sign it, but I just wanna let you know that this is what you're gonna find. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_206.mp4 No, he did. He said, you know, don't say anything until, you know-- I don't know if I know what he said. I think he said that he's not sure if they do. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_208.mp4 He said, just go ahead and give it a shot anyway, you know, and, um, I just, I figured I'd just give her a shot, but I think I like your, I think to spare myself some, uh, frustration and further agony- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_210.mp4 "-I think that I might try that. I think I might try, you know, from now on you know, uh, finding like a tactful way of asking, you know, I don't wanna be blunt about it and go you know, ""Do you hire criminals?"" or anything. " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_212.mp4 I'm a former criminal though. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_214.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_216.mp4 Right. So, I know that I am a new guy, but, uh, they don't, you know, so I think society's a lot less forgiving. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_218.mp4 And individuals, and um, so I think I'm gonna try
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AnnoMi-client_100_220.mp4 Hmm. Seems, uh, sort of forward, you know, but I-I think that it's probably better if I do tell them so I don't waste my time and hope. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_222.mp4 You know, yeah. I think I'm gonna try that from now on. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_224.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_226.mp4 Yeah. I mean the interview process- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_228.mp4 -itself, no, I don't think I ever- yeah. No, I-I mean, I don't believe that I have a problem with the actual interview process. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_230.mp4 Yeah. It's been a lot. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_232.mp4 Been a lot, yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_234.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_236.mp4 I have heard of it. I haven't- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_238.mp4 -looked into it yet, but- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_240.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_242.mp4 Yeah. I know. I-I've done some research on it for school. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_244.mp4 And, uh, it turns out it's a big cause of the recidivism rate. You know- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_246.mp4 -as far as people going back- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_248.mp4 -to what they know, and, uh, and it's, uh, there is prejud- uh, prejudicial motivation, uh, and there is— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_250.mp4 It's really frustrating. I know. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_252.mp4 I think that- I think- I think ignorance is what really— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_254.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_258.mp4 Yeah, exactly. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_260.mp4 You know, I know there's-there's just a lot of- a lot of bullshit. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_262.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_264.mp4 Yeah, to figure out [unintelligible 00:27:30] anyway, you know. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_266.mp4 Yeah. I-I, you know, I, you know, like I said, I wanna make sure I come back and, um, kind of get my, um, you know, my overall mental health- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_268.mp4 -you know, um, I wouldn't say stable because I'm not that unstable. I just— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_270.mp4 It has affected it. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_272.mp4 Yeah, rejection. Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_274.mp4 So, I just wanna make sure that I'm okay. So- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_276.mp4 -I'll be back and we can, you know, we can discuss it further if you have any information and I'll share whatever I've got. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_278.mp4 Well, thanks for the suggestions. Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_280.mp4 No problem. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_100_282.mp4 Thank you. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_1.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_3.mp4 Sure. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_5.mp4 I drink wine- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_7.mp4 -mostly. Um, I go down to the little pub down the street. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_9.mp4 Have a few glasses of wine. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_11.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_13.mp4 Hmm, for four times a week probably. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_15.mp4 Three to four, five. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_17.mp4 Maybe if it's on a weekend, maybe six. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_19.mp4 Over a long
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AnnoMi-client_101_21.mp4 Are you serious? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_23.mp4 Seven drinks in a week doesn't seem like that much? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_25.mp4 Yeah, and I-I didn't think it was much, but that makes it look like I'm drinking way too much. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_27.mp4 Well, I know my drinking has increased a little since I got divorced and moved to Portland, but I-I don't think it's that much of a problem. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_29.mp4 No, not really. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_31.mp4 I didn't realize that drinking had anything to do with blood pressure. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_33.mp4 Oh, well. Well, then I guess that could be a problem. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_35.mp4 I guess I can cut down some. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_37.mp4 I'd probably a 6. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_39.mp4 Well, I didn't realize that drinking was related to my blood pressure problems. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_41.mp4 And I did fall earlier this year on my home from the bar and hurt my shoulder. I don't think the drinking made me fall, but it probably didn't help the situation. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_43.mp4 And though my son keeps telling me that I'm drinking too much, and it's scary to think that my drinking is harmful. It's a big word. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_45.mp4 Sounds like it to me. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_47.mp4 I think I can try to do that, yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_49.mp4 I guess I could use those numbers, and I can't make any promises, but I could try to drink less than three in a night and less than seven in a week. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_51.mp4 That mean I can only drink two or three times a week. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_53.mp4 Like I can try that, yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_55.mp4 I don't think I need to quit, but I think I can try to cut down. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_57.mp4 That's what I'll shoot for. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_59.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_61.mp4 Sounds good. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_101_63.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_1.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_3.mp4 Yes, I guess. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_5.mp4 Well, I didn't do anything yet. I didn't go-- I know I was gonna go, but I didn't. But, um, I did look at
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AnnoMi-client_103_7.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_9.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_11.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_13.mp4 Yeah, but I'm gonna do it anyway, because this is what I need to do to make-- you know, to make friends. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_103_15.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_1.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_3.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_5.mp4 Yeah. Somewhere around eight days. I'm not sure. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_7.mp4 Um, I really only drink at parties. I don't drink at home or anything. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_9.mp4 Um, liquor, whenever people are mixing, um, vodka, sometimes beer, but I don't like beer very much. Um, the drinks at parties are usually like vodka and orange juice or gin and tonics. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_11.mp4 You mean the whole time I'm there? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_13.mp4 Um, probably four or five drinks. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_15.mp4 Yeah. It makes me feel relaxed. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_17.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_19.mp4 Um, I forget how many drinks I've had like when a friend asks me or I forget whose house I'm at. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_21.mp4 Right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_23.mp4 Um, yeah. I was drinking the last time I had sex. Um, the guy had been drinking too, and we didn't use a condom. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_25.mp4 Yeah. We've had sex before and we've used a condom before. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_27.mp4 Well, we just didn't stop to put one on. We weren't thinking that way. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_29.mp4 Yeah. I would've definitely told him to put on a condom if I was sober. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_31.mp4 Well, that's not me. I don't need help from anyone. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_33.mp4 Um, well, it's fun. I like drinking when my friends are drinking too. Um, I laugh more. It's just fun. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_35.mp4 Um, I don't like forgetting where I'm at sometimes. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_37.mp4 I really don't want any STDs. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_41.mp4 Well, I definitely don't want to drink too much again. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_43.mp4 Um, a nine. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_45.mp4 Well, I really don't want any STDs and I don't like wondering whether I have one or not. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_47.mp4 Um, well, I wanna count my drinks so I don't have more than two and I want to stop drinking once I start feeling drunk. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_49.mp4 Well, I have this friend who thinks I drink too much. She would probably be willing to make me promise not to have more than two drinks at a party. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_51.mp4 I'm going to talk with him and I'm gonna make him promise that we always use a condom and that we don't have sex drunk. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_104_53.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_1.mp4 Well, um, since we spoke last, I've been to the gym a couple of times. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_3.mp4 I have. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_5.mp4 Yeah, and actually, my pants feel a little better too. I'm very pleased with it. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_7.mp4 Um, I do feel better. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_11.mp4 Well, my back doesn't hurt nearly so much. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_13.mp4 And, um, but it seems like it's, um-- but it's still hard. I'd like to go more often or I-I guess that I'm
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AnnoMi-client_105_15.mp4 Um, well, I guess just sticking with it and not getting, um, sidetracked. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_17.mp4 Like last week, I-I didn't get there at all until like Thursday during the week,- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_19.mp4 -so it was- it was a frustrating week like for the gym that way. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_21.mp4 I was kinda busy with some other things, but, um— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_23.mp4 I-I got— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_25.mp4 Yeah, and actually, I made it again on Saturday too. So. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_27.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_29.mp4 Yeah. It's been a little-little hectic, you know. And, uh
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AnnoMi-client_105_31.mp4 No, but, um, when-when I'm not at the gym, and I am my normal rational self, I realize that I'm, you know, way, way past the age of where I would really even want to do that, let alone want to spend the time it takes. But then while I'm at the gym, and I see the buff young guys, you know, lifting a lot of weight and all that stuff, then you know, the-- I don't know, the urge to be buff comes up in me. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_33.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_35.mp4 It is. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_37.mp4 Well, I noticed
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AnnoMi-client_105_39.mp4 "Um, a little bit less junk food. Um, like at times, when I'm like I feel like, ""Oh, I think I'll just go have a candy bar,"" or some worthless thing like that I'll actually have second thoughts before I do it. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_41.mp4 Well, I think, uh, when I really start seeing some results at the gym, it's kinda, uh, I think the way it works in my mind is if I've worked out really hard and I've- and I've
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AnnoMi-client_105_43.mp4 "-you know, and then as I'm looking at that double or triple fudge four-decker of ice cream Sunday thing, you know, that somebody is eating, I would say, ""Wow, that would be about two hours on the treadmill."" Then-then that would be probably-- the-- that would keep me from actually ordering one of those. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_45.mp4 Right, decadent
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AnnoMi-client_105_47.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_105_49.mp4 Okay. But it seems to be going so far so good. I-I guess, you know, I can like, you know, um, I-I'm-I'm pretty pleased with who
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AnnoMi-client_107_1.mp4 Um, pretty obvious [chuckles]. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_3.mp4 What do you mean what I did? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_5.mp4 That's the same as always. Same as always. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_7.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_9.mp4 A razor? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_11.mp4 Do you wanna see it? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_13.mp4 I think have you ever been to an ER when you cut yourself, you'd know why I don't go. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_15.mp4 I was thinking about killing myself. You thought you would help me and you didn't. That's what I want to talk about. I wanna talk about how it is that my life is not going better and you are not helping me, and you are not available to me when I need help. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_107_17.mp4 I cut myself the first time I called you thinking you would help me, you wouldn't help me so then I figured, what the hell I [chuckles] might as well just go all the way. And so, that's why I cut myself that deep. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_5.mp4 Well, I-I told the counselor that I think childcare is probably my-my biggest issue right now. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_7.mp4 Yeah. Um, well, my mom normally watches my son, but lately, it's kind of becoming a problem. You know, she like will back out at the last second, and so I've had to call in at work a couple of times. I've had to miss class a few times. So i-it's just stressful worrying about, you know, whether I'll be able to do those things or not. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_11.mp4 Um, well, I have a sister, but I don't really trust her to watch my son, and I don't really know that many people that-- the only thing I can think of, I have this one neighbor who stepped in and helped one time when my mom backed out. She-she actually has, uh, a three-year-old daughter, so you know, kind of worked out. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_13.mp4 Um, I don't really know her that well, but I mean, she seems nice and I-I think she did a pretty good job that night. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_23.mp4 Well, I mean, I-I like cooking. I'm-I'm actually in school for culinary arts. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_25.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_27.mp4 Hmm. That's, that's interesting. I-I never really thought of something like that, but, yeah, it might work. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_31.mp4 [chuckles] No, no, not at all. He, he really hasn't been in the picture since my son was born. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_33.mp4 It's-it's three nights right now, so I have class on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday nights. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_35.mp4 Um, well, you know, if my neighbor could even just take over one day of watching my son, I think that would help my mom quite a bit. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_37.mp4 I mean, I think so, yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_39.mp4 Mom, you know, just, I guess talking to my neighbor and seeing if she's even interested in this idea, and if she is, you know, telling my mom about it and, you know, hopefully, that will make her feel a little better and maybe a little bit more reliable. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_41.mp4 Just a couple months from now. He's almost three. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_43.mp4 I've heard of it, but I don't know that much. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_45.mp4 Yeah, I mean, it sounds like it would be really good for my son and, you know, it would help me out in terms of childcare for sure. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_47.mp4 [chuckles] Well, you know, I-I've been working on it a couple of weeks now, and honestly, it's been a lot harder than I expected. Um, trying to break my routine in the evenings, especially has-has been hard, but, um, you know, a couple of nights I have reached my goal in terms of, you know, number of cigarettes I'm going to smoke and number of drinks. So, I mean, I've done okay some days, but others, not so much. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_49.mp4 Yeah, yeah. I definitely have, so I-I try to never smoke around him, and if I do smoke at home, I always go out to the balcony to smoke. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_51.mp4 Um, well, I guess just first talk to my neighbor and see if she likes this idea, and then if she does, I can talk to my mom about it. Hopefully, that kind of helps her situation out. And then, um, I'm definitely want to look into the Head Start idea because I think that would be really good. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_53.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_108_55.mp4 Thanks. All right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_3.mp4 That sounds bad. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_5.mp4 Tobacco. Well, I don't smoke cigarettes. I've never smoked cigarettes. I do go out with my friends. Um, you know, we go out to bars and, you know, we'll have a few drinks and smoke some of those little cigarillo-type things. I mean I wouldn't even think of them as cigars and they're certainly not cigarettes. Um, and I mean I'll have one or two of those in an evening with, uh, with my friends but certainly not 20 or 30 of them a day like you would with cigarettes and that's the only thing that could possibly have anything to do with tobacco. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_7.mp4 But that's- that's just like a- a social thing. That's something that my friends and I do. We
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AnnoMi-client_109_9.mp4 Oh, no. No. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_11.mp4 Well, we've-- you have a point there. Mm, now that you mention it, um, I have started having one or two at work, you know, when we have break since I have a couple of friends at work that smoke and so every time we have a break, you know, we all go out to the- the break place outside, um, and so I- now I go with them and I have one of these Swisher Sweets. Um, I like the peach flavor [unintelligible 00:02:32] they're so cute. But that's really only pretty recently. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_13.mp4 Well, yeah, yeah. You know now that you say it like that it's true. Um, I am smoking on a daily basis. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_15.mp4 Well, it's relaxing and it's just nice to be with people, um. Um, and you know, when, you know, I like to go to Las Vegas, and so when we go to Vegas, it's really fun to go to the cigar bars, is kind of sophisticated and fun and so, you know, it's mostly a social thing. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_17.mp4 I wouldn't say I was a chain smoker. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_19.mp4 Well, I was going to ask you about, um, whitening my teeth because I've noticed that they have more stains on them up than a few years ago, and so I imagine that has something to do with the smoking. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_21.mp4 Um. Well, there's the expense, you know. Wi-with the economy and all, um, I- I have to be careful about my money and so, um, there is the extra expense of if I'm buying more of them than I used to. So the-the money aspect is also a concern. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_23.mp4 Oh, yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_25.mp4 Oh, absolutely not. I mean I thought of it more as a- a fun thing to do with my friends, certainly not a smoking habit or anything that would be harmful. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_27.mp4 "Oh, yes. I checked the box on your form when you asked if I use tobacco, I checked ""No,"" because I never thought of myself as a smoker. " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_29.mp4 I'm really concerned, I mean, I don't want to, um, develop cancer, lung cancer, or any of the awful things that happen from smoking, and, you know, really, until this conversation, I never really thought of myself as a smoker at all. So- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_35.mp4 Oh, I would. I really would because, like I said, I'm a brand new smoker. I didn't know I was a smoker until I came to see you. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_37.mp4 Oh, I think I will probably be in seven or eight. I'm-I'm pretty confident that I could stop doing this. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_39.mp4 Because it's not a part of my daily life. I don't have to have, uh, a smoke when I get up in the morning. I don't smoke 20 or 30 of them a day, so it's not that much exposure and I-I feel pretty confident that I could stop. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_41.mp4 Um, I'd really like some more information about quitting. I mean, I've heard there's some-some new medications, there are some new things that can be done to help people make quitting more comfortable and I-I really wanna quit. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_109_43.mp4 That'd be wonderful. Thank you. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_1.mp4 Well, there's a lot of things that bring me here today, but the one thing that I want to focus on is the fact that I really want my son to grow up in a great environment, and just have, like, more than what I had growing up. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_5.mp4 Yes, that's on my mind. I love my son dearly, and I don't complain about the childhood I had, I had a great childhood. I just
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AnnoMi-client_110_7.mp4 -and-and I really want the best for him. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_9.mp4 Yes, um, me and his father, like, we're-- We were engaged and, um, we're just not at that connection anymore. We're focused on what we want to do in life, and that's kind of put a hassle on our relationship. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_11.mp4 Yes, I want to become a social worker. I want to help people. That's just what I love to do, and he, um, is currently driving trucks, and so it kind of like puts a damper on everything on our relationship, and we're just like mainly focusing on our son and-and it's just been hard, like, reconnecting. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_13.mp4 Yes, I feel it is, and I just-- I always really wanted like a family, like me and the dad and-and the child. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_15.mp4 I-- That's how I feel, that I love my son dearly, but I want to provide him with that, like, we are together, we're doing it together as a team- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_17.mp4 -because now that we're going away from each other it's made things more difficult. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_19.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_21.mp4 Um, he was my fiance, but- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_23.mp4 -we called off our engagement. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_25.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_27.mp4 Yes. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_29.mp4 He drives long distance. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_31.mp4 Yeah. Days, and the longest was, like, a week. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_35.mp4 I'm concerned that when he was just local, we were able to do picnics and-and-and do the whole family thing that I just really love, and even though my parents weren't together, we would still, you know-- They were really civil with each other and we would go to Disneyland, we'd go to the-the fairs, and you know, I feel like it's different. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_37.mp4 Even though I'm not saying that we-we probably won't be together ever, there's a possibility that that could happen, but I still want that togetherness than apart. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_41.mp4 I feel like, um, I'm not, like, valued. We're not valued from his perspective. I mean, that's- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_43.mp4 -what I can sense. I can't really make that a final say because he may feel something different. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_47.mp4 Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_49.mp4 "And so when he is available it's kind of like, I guess where he's at and where I'm at is just like, ""Why is that a problem for you?"" And I'm like, ""It is because I want--"" " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_51.mp4 "Yeah, ""why is it a problem?"" He feels like it's always me who wants these things and-- but I-I made it clear that, you know, I want our son to grow up with the togetherness- " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_53.mp4 -especially like how my parents had it, you know. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_55.mp4 They weren't the best of friends but they could come together and, you know, it was better together than apart- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_57.mp4 -and so I'm feeling like there's a-a change and I don't know whether to roll with it or just accept it, accept it. And it's all a balance between mind and-and heart and that's the battle. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_59.mp4 Well, my mind says that it's not going that way and you can't make it turn that way, you can't change anybody, they have to change themselves. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_61.mp4 And if they wanted to do it then, you know, it would definitely work. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_63.mp4 And I feel like I don't wanna subject to just accepting things the way they are, especially if that's a concern for me- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_65.mp4 "-as far as dealing with the togetherness, I feel like if I have a problem, I voice it to you and we solve. You know, we'll try to figure out ways so
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AnnoMi-client_110_67.mp4 """Let's not go over the problem over and over and over."" " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_69.mp4 """Let's try to think of ways to make it better."" And I notice that not everyone's like me in that sense. " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_71.mp4 "And so, do I wanna eventually hurt myself in the long run? Or, you know, help myself by saying, ""Okay this is just accepting that he's not in that position, so let me just do what's for me in my heart and, you know- " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_73.mp4 "-stabilize myself to be the best parent that I can be."" " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_77.mp4 Yeah, I'm not sure about that part either. [chuckles] neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_78.mp4 Oh, okay, all right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_79.mp4 Because I know that dealing with perspectives you can, you know, you can't really tell someone what their, you know, perspective is- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_81.mp4 -but I don't-I don't sense it, I don't feel it and, um, I think that's just what I'm going by and I feel like probably 98% true. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_83.mp4 And that's where the sickness comes from. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_85.mp4 And that's what I'm confused about because, you know, I'm very-- the type of person that, I don't wanna hold things in but yet I don't want to have to keep explaining- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_87.mp4 -to you, you know like, I don't want to keep going on, iterating what I want in this relationship- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_89.mp4 -especially if I'm listening to you. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_91.mp4 "You know, I would want you to listen to me. And I understand by like in the position that I'm in, I've always been the receiver and, um, anybody-- so it's hard for people to like receive, you know, from me so, I'm just like-- Lke I was like sitting, um, yesterday I was kinda feeling down and I just never-- I was looking through my phone actually, this is really funny, I was looking through my phone like, ""Who can I talk to?"" Because I never really opened up to anybody. " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_110_95.mp4 "-and so I'm like, ""Out of all this, I don't know who I'd-who I'd talk to."" " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_1.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_3.mp4 Uh, sure. What's this about? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_7.mp4 Sure. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_9.mp4 Well, you know they just decriminalized it in Virginia, it's not a big deal. I'm not in trouble, am I? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_11.mp4 It's not a big deal. It's just like a couple times a week to relax. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_13.mp4 Yeah. I mean, I'm here on an academic scholarship so I have to keep my grades up and I'm on the debate team, so there's a lot going on. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_15.mp4 Well, yeah. The truth is I'm the first in my family to go to college so I don't know, I guess, I'm in a bit over my head. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_17.mp4 I've always been an anxious person. Pot just helps me calm my nerves. I'm I in trouble? sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_20.mp4 Well, some of these kids are just so much more sophisticated than me so I guess when I party with them, I feel like I'm fitting in. I don't know how else to explain it. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_22.mp4 I don't know if I feel more accepted, more like I'm trying to fit in by using it. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_24.mp4 I'm not sure it is. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_28.mp4 I don't know. I- It helps me relax but I guess I'm nervous I'll get caught. Um, my parents would kill me if they knew that I smoked. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_32.mp4 Well, I don't have the money for it. I just usually bum it off to my roommate, her parents give her a lot of spending money but I don't know, it's kind of embarrassing to have to do that. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_36.mp4 I don't know. When you put it that way, it doesn't sound like a very good habit. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_40.mp4 No. We don't do that kind of thing in my family. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_42.mp4 It's just not done. I don't know. It's something for crazy people and we definitely do not have the money for it. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_44.mp4 Yeah. I just don't see it happening. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_48.mp4 Well, I don't have the money for it so I can't pay for it and my parents wouldn't approve. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_52.mp4 Uh, I would never do that. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_54.mp4 Okay. I guess I'll think about it. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_111_56.mp4 Do I have to go there? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_1.mp4 Okay, oh, actually, could I confide something in you that has been bothering me lately. Well, prior to that party, like, as you know, I'm a honor student and my parents, like, they keep me very, like k-kept down out of the, like so- like social life. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_3.mp4 And, um, about a month ago, my friends invited me to a party. And they used the fact that, Oh, I'm always doing my homework, I'm always studying that to allow me to go to the party. And on
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AnnoMi-client_112_5.mp4 "It was a- it was a unique experience, as you can say. I guess you can say. And, I don't know, I-- It was fun, at least, in the moment. So, I kept doing it. Then this past weekend, instead of studying for an exam, I asked my-- I begged my mom to let me go to another party. And she, kind of, knew what I was doing. She asked me to, like, to promise her of no alcohol, no drugs. Then I'll pick you up by 12:00. And I-I was surprised. 12:00-12:00, that's basically when the party starts, but I told her whatever-- I thought- I thought to myself that I'll-I'll come-- I'll figure out to delay her, can you pick me up later? So later, so she-- I promised that-- She dropped me off, I promised her no alcohol, no nothing. So I-- we go, I have fun like I've been having. And I was drinking. And then the time- the time came for her to pick me up. And as soon-- I couldn't delay her from picking me up. And as soon as she picked me up, and I stepped in the car, she said, ""You drank vodka."" And I'm like, I-I didn't know what to say. I just looked at the floor. And I-I feel terrible because I-I betrayed my mother. I broke my trust with her that she expected me not to indulge in alcohol. And that's exactly what I did. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_9.mp4 Yes, right. Like I've been noticing I've been more lethargic and apathetic towards schoolwork. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_11.mp4 I haven't really-- I kind of just sit in class like-- I-- my mind is elsewhere, especially on the weekends, where instead of-- I was- I was instead of studying, I caught up with my friends, trying to find where we can-- I get alcohol based on their age and stuff like that. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_13.mp4 I don't know. It-It's because I'm a very reserved person, for the most part, not when- not when I'm dealing with sports or like-- you know, like a social environment. I tend to keep to myself because I'm very self-conscious, I would say. And when I- when I drink, I feel, I don't know, like, it relaxes me. I'm able to talk or engage with other people more easily. I don't know it just— sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_19.mp4 Just different groups, friends or groups, girlfriends, like different people that I'm hanging out with because certain people are associated with that type of scene. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_21.mp4 So, that-that-that's also changed. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_23.mp4 A little bit because not all of them are into that. So, like, I'm in one group of friends, and I would talk to another person that's an another group of friends and they just happen to invite me to that first party. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_25.mp4 So, since then, I've been hanging out more with them, getting to know them. But I can also see that oh, I'm just living life, I guess. But that's also not fair to them that I'm not there for them as much as I was before. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_29.mp4 Oh, um, I feel I should st-stop. I mean, like, I'm not-not unrealistic. I understand that situations like this will happen. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_31.mp4 It's just up to me not to take it so far, where I can't remember the night before, if I'm puking. All I remember is the toilet- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_33.mp4 -that's-that's not worth it, either. And I have to slowly build back my trust with my mother because that was that's a big blow. It's little so I guess may seem to other people. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_35.mp4 But to me then it's a big thing. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_41.mp4 A lot at this point because I feel that's a big factor with gaining back my trust with my mother. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_43.mp4 And also getting back on top of my school work again my athletics too. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_45.mp4 So I feel that there-there's a future in that. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_47.mp4 I'm pretty confident, especially. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_49.mp4 Probably like an 8 or 9. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_51.mp4 And that can't be a ten there's nothing as ten in life I feel. Like there's too many factors but I feel like I'm determined to. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_53.mp4 Because I don't know I feel deter-determined to-to make sure this happens because I don't like how I felt after I-I betrayed my mother. I don't like remembering that the feeling of like vomiting. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_55.mp4 It's not a pleasant experience. Uh, it's not something that I wish to enjoy. So like even if I do drink, I don't want to drink to the point where that happens, like all the fun that I have and prior to that just it's not worth-it's not worth drinking. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_57.mp4 To make sure I have my studies. Well first, try to get-get back my trust with mother- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_59.mp4 -then just focus on my studies. Then if I have time for leisure time like I'll go party with my friends and just be as a party with them doesn't mean I have to drink. And I do one cup is not going to do anything to my life either. But I'd prefer not to do that. I prefer just make sure. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_61.mp4 Exactly. Just so I take part with the social convention but it's not. Hey guys. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_112_63.mp4 And-and thank you for listening me listening to me. It means a lot to me. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_3.mp4 Well, I came today because my daughter's in the hospital as well. I think it's important to quit, but I enjoy smoking. I'm not ready to give it up right now. My life is too much in turmoil. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_7.mp4 I smoked when I was young, and I certainly don't want it for her. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_9.mp4 Well, that's true. It seems so hard. I'm just not ready for this right now. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_11.mp4 It's very enjoyable, relaxing, you know, a stress reliever. When I'm at work, we all go out and smoke and chit chat and, you know, talk about things. I would hate to not smoke, really. I'd be left out. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_13.mp4 Hmm, I like to have a cigarette after I eat. It sort of tells my brain I'm finished, stop eating, I'm full. So it's a- it's a way to
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AnnoMi-client_113_15.mp4 Let me think. Well, I just enjoy it. I think it's, uh-- it's not good for me, I know, but I'm so used to smoking. I don't really think about quitting too much. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_17.mp4 Okay. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_19.mp4 That's true. Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_21.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_23.mp4 Exactly. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_25.mp4 Well, I-I'm worried about my children. I feel like I'm being a bad parent, and um, I often wonder, you know, they've seen me smoke for years. I certainly don't want my 12-year-old daughter to start smoking, and some of her friends are already smoking. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_27.mp4 Yeah, just this morning, I was outside having a cigarette, and then when I looked up, there she was looking out the window watching me smoke. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_29.mp4 I felt terrible, you know, I was projecting-- I wanna be a good parent, and I don't feel this really is part of the plan. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_31.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_33.mp4 It doesn't fit, you know. It's the opposite side of the coin. You know, I love to do it, but I don't think it's right. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_35.mp4 I can't think of anything right now. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_37.mp4 I don't have any plans to quit. It's just something I'm thinking about. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_39.mp4 Exactly. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_41.mp4 Oh, sure. Sure, I'll come in. Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_43.mp4 We can talk about it some more. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_45.mp4 Okay, okay, I'll give it a try. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_47.mp4 Thank you. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_113_49.mp4 All right. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_1.mp4 Uh, I guess that sound- that sounds right. I mean, I was- I was kinda drunk and it happened like a week ago. I just, I drove over to my friend's house, um, just to go watch the game and, you know, we're having a couple beers and next thing I know the Vikings are kind of losing pretty big. So we drank a little bit more than usual. And I mean, at the end I had to get home and I couldn't find a ride. So I-I just drove. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_3.mp4 Yeah. That's-that's exactly how it happened. I mean, I'm a normal college kid. I like to drink and hanging out with my buddies. I mean, I, it wasn't a big house party or anything and I got busted. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_5.mp4 Yeah. I tried to be safe. I mean, I tried to call her roommate, but I don't know, getting in trouble anyways. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_7.mp4 Um, well, I wanna say I have a drinking problem. I think I'd probably have more of a, like getting caught problem. I mean, my friends, they-they drink like fishes and I-- they don't ever get caught and you got me over here and I get caught and they left. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_9.mp4 I guess- I guess more problems with police and school and I really don't have like the time or the money for any of that. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_11.mp4 God. It's, I guess, super important, because just-just going to detox alone was-was awful, the experience
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AnnoMi-client_114_13.mp4 Well, I guess I- I guess the easy one is I wouldn't- I wouldn't drink so much and I try to avoid situations where I'm more-more likely to get in trouble. So probably I don't wanna drink so much. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_15.mp4 Um, I guess I would say like, I don't know, like over halfway. So maybe like a six. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_17.mp4 I could probably, um, I don't know. I-I guess, well, the big thing would be like kind of where I drink so like drinking like if I'm only like in my apartment so thenI'm not risking myself to drive or like if I- if I go out to a party waiting till, like, I'm 21 to drink. Um, maybe find stuff to do that doesn't revolve around drinking, like, I'm guessing like a town this size there's got to be more to do than just drink. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_19.mp4 "Um, I mean, I guess the big one would be like I won't- I won't be hungover all the time like I would make it to my 8:00 AMs then, well, even-even when I make it to my 8:00 AMs now like I just, I sleep like I wake up I'm like, ""Oh my god what's going on?"" And then I get to my 8:00 AM and I'll just sleep through and then miss just about everything that's on the test. So I think if I- if I reprioritize what is important to me, I probably help me succeed. I mean, in high school, I had a 3.5 GPA. So I know I could do it here. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_21.mp4 Um, I mean education is really important to me and-and also my family. My parents are always talking about it and I really- I really wanna be an international journalist, to be on the news like, I mean, I have the face for it, um. So I guess if I reprioritize my- if I reprioritize what I need to do I and I won't drink so much. I probably wouldn't be disappointing my parents and I'd be able to get a really good education. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_114_23.mp4 All right, all right. When is the seminar? neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_1.mp4 You're welcome. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_3.mp4 Yeah. I stayed home two times already from school just 'cause of the bullying and everything. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_5.mp4 And as I was out of school like more rumors started to happen as I was out of school. I come back and like these rumors are going around about me. Like one time when I stayed home, supposedly, I was in the principal's office the whole day and I had security guards like escort me to classes which that was not true 'cause I was home the whole time. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_7.mp4 I've been getting blamed ever since like fifth or sixth grade about with every single thing that's going on. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_9.mp4 I think because the kids-- 'cause I like to nag on things. Like when people tell me things, I like to like talk more like with the person instead of just leaving it be, and I think the kids that like blame me for everything say that I'm an easy target to like hit, to like talk about, it's like annoying. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_11.mp4 "If somebody says like, ""Oh, I heard this thing about you."" I go, ""Oh, really, what is it,"" and I just keep talking and like make things worse. Like, if somebody says that they wanna beat me up, I like go on, and say like, ""Okay, then hit me,"" and like I just don't leave it be, like I just don't walk away. I like stay there and like talk more. " neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_13.mp4 "I think possibly more like talking more like it gets like bigger and bigger. It's just like if you stop it, then they don't know what to say, they-they're like, ""Oh, like she's walking away."" And like that stops everything but like if I talk it-it keeps building up and we both get in trouble- " sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_15.mp4 -and like called down to the principal's office. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_17.mp4 -and get talked to. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_19.mp4 Well, usually I try telling myself to just like, leave it be- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_21.mp4 -but if somebody says something about me, it gets me mad 'cause like what the heck, like you're talking about me so like I try to stop but sometimes I just say like a few words. Like I think now I'm trying to get like better. sustain talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_23.mp4 "Like there's this one incident that somebody was talking to me, I just said like, ""Oh, wow, this is like really lame, like I'm just gonna leave,"" and I like let the conversation be. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_25.mp4 Yeah. I felt proud of myself. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_27.mp4 "I was just like thinking of like when I'm- whenever I like I'm saying like stuff back, mom gets really mad at me, she's like, ""Well, I'm not gonna help you anymore."" 'Cause, she tells me to like leave it be, but I really don't lis-listen to her so she gets mad. So I tried like thinking of like her feelings and like what would happen after if I say, ""This is lame, leave me alone,"" 'cause then they'll like stop and I won't get like yelled at anymore. " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_31.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_33.mp4 'Cause usually, if I get in trouble, mom gives me the silent treatment that I don't like. It's like she doesn't talk to me, I'm like trying to talk to her, she don't like wheezing being like, uh, I don't like it. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_41.mp4 Like they all like stopped talking to me, and the funny thing was that their eighth-graders that like didn't even go to my old school like I don't even know how they said of talking to me, I was like, creepy. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_43.mp4 Well, they don't really say that to me like I just like think that 'cause that's what I've like heard from my mom, and people talking to me 'cause I keep talking to them- neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_45.mp4 -so they keep coming back at me. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_47.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_49.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_51.mp4 Yeah. [chuckles] That happens a lot. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_53.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_55.mp4 I was thinking of like, um, if I'm like at school like a peep things are happening during class- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_57.mp4 -I just say, can I use the washroom or something to go like walk and like think of like how to like leave them be. And one time during my gym class, there's this girl that I had her like not talking early. And we're playing pickleball, I don't know if you know that, it's like a- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_59.mp4 -it's like a badminton, big life-size ping pong ball game. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_61.mp4 Yeah, you have like a big bracket— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_63.mp4 No. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_65.mp4 No, [chuckles] there's no pick. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_67.mp4 Mm-hmm. And like I was supposed to be like again turn. I told my-- I went to my gym teacher like silently and said I can't be by this person, can I move to the next court. So he like switched us around so I won't be by her. And that like happened. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_69.mp4 The girls like what the heck like. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_71.mp4 Yeah. Like I would like smacked her in the face or some- [laughs] neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_73.mp4 -or something. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_75.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_77.mp4 Yeah, that's like— change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_79.mp4 Yeah, there's like four main ones but not that like I can say who. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_81.mp4 And the friends that I have like I know are my true friends, They're like ones that don't really 'cause drama or like— change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_83.mp4 I mean, they might but like they're not like bad and they actually like help me. Like some of these girls that like so-called friends like- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_85.mp4 "-They're like they come to me saying like, ""Oh, did you really have to like punch this girl."" I'm like, ""No."" It's like you're not a friend if you'd actually believe that, you know what I mean? " change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_87.mp4 Yeah, it's kind of annoying, 'cause it's kind of hard like going into high school and like knowing how to believe and who not to believe. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_89.mp4 Yeah, 1,003. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_91.mp4 And then there's the sophomores also that you have like another 1,000, so it's like— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_93.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_95.mp4 Yeah, with these like the first rumors had started going around about like my friend and I, and like I lost him just 'cause of rumors. It's like, what the heck. Like I couldn't get over him for like gosh, who knows, it was like three months and I finally just had got over him. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_97.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_99.mp4 I was like really, you're probably just jealous 'cause I was friends with him or something. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_101.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_103.mp4 I just found like other people and just like forgot about it. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_105.mp4 I say the ones that like not even that I've known the longest, but like the ones that actually hang out with me a lot, or like texting me a lot, or like calling. And the ones that are actually like that helped you before with like situations. And that they tell you stuff and they know they can trust you. Like one of my friends tells me everything about her. And like that's how I know she's a good friend 'cause she trusts me with things. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_107.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_115.mp4 Yeah, that happens a lot with me with like a lot of friends. Like this one person like we've been friends since like-- Well, we were friends since fourth grade. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_117.mp4 And like she just starts like lying and like just talking smack about me. And it's like, you're not a good friend then. Like I thought you were a friend since you've been my friend since our fourth grade. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_119.mp4 And she just like causes a lot of drama now. And like she came- Like the friends I met at high school, she came like into them like, you're not gonna know-- In college, you're not gonna know who to follow 'cause-- since you keep following with my friends, what are you gonna do in college like not being able to find your own friends? It's kind of annoying 'cause they're my friends and like I can't be by her and she comes to my friends. It's like- change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_121.mp4 -get your own friends, [chuckles] stop following me. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_123.mp4 She just lies a lot and like just starts dramas about me and I haven't even talked to her like since eight grade. We only went to school together and she just like makes me lose other friends 'cause of the drama she starts change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_125.mp4 A nobody. I'm gonna say that. She's like— neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_127.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_129.mp4 I do spend time with them. Like I hang out with them a lot. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_131.mp4 Ask for it. Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_133.mp4 I just ask them like if I'm like gonna get like sent down to the principal's office for like something happening, I call them to come down to, like, support my, like, backup information. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_135.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_137.mp4 Yeah. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_141.mp4 Yeah, there's one friend that might wanna like talk about it. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_143.mp4 And she's really like-- she doesn't know, like, who to talk 'cause her mom is not always there for her. change talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_145.mp4 And so like she's like doesn't know where to go. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_147.mp4 Like she doesn't know who to believe. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_149.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_151.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_153.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_155.mp4 Mm-hmm. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_157.mp4 Yeah. neutral talk_type
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AnnoMi-client_116_159.mp4 I've noticed that. neutral talk_type
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